Came across this song called I Stand Alone by Bryan White..while browsing youtube for a certain song. Me...Likey!
I have not slept for 2 days... well last night I did get some shut eye...for like an hour or so before jolting awake. Too many thoughts running through my head until it's affecting my sleep and my appetite....VODKA AND SPRITE TIME!! DELICIOUSLY REFRESHING! hahah
Juste un pion dans votre vie. Quelque chose que vous utilisez et jeter quand vous n'avez plus aucune utilité. Peut-être que je n'aurais pas ouvert mon cœur et aimé à nouveau. Qui sait? Peut-être que je suis destiné à marcher seul dans cette vie.
chanson préférée actuel .... Au-delà du monde je me promenais Pour trouver une naissance dans ma mort Et à la couronne de mon voyage J'ai vu l'aube loin
les restes épars de la beauté Derrière les ruines de la carie C'est le destin de l'âme déchue
Destiné à marcher seul Avec aucun sur le côté et aucune au-dessus
Mon temps est venu, encore une fois Pour le soul survivor Qu'est-ce une existence solitaire Dans cet univers de la mine La meilleure chanson pour décrire comment je me sens et ce que la vie est faite pour moi. En grandissant, j'ai dû me battre pour mes deux parents l'amour et maintenant le vôtre. Il n'est jamais facile. Je suis toujours à la fin perdre si je pourrais aussi bien arrêter maintenant et de réaliser que je suis destiné à la vie d'une seule vie.
J'espère que cette salope baise tous les meilleurs et de prier, elle ne ruine pas votre vie. Ou sa mère folle foutu ruiner votre bol de riz. J'ai été très patient et le temps est maintenant venu pour moi de vous laisser aller totalement. Je travaille ma façon de quitter le pays à nouveau et quand je fais c'est pour de bon. Soit partir et de travailler ailleurs où ou quitter la terre pour de bon. La vie n'est jamais facile et pour être honnête je suis malade et fatigué de se battre pour ce qui n'a jamais été censée être la mienne ou avec moi. Un enfant maudit depuis sa naissance et toujours une malédiction à tous.
Pour tous une très bonne journée. Je vous la vie sans ma présence ... une fois pour toutes:). RJ qui était autrefois aimé n'existera plus. Maintenant, seuls les égoïstes RJ existe.
Dîner s'est arrêté comme cela avait peu d'appétit pour manger. il jeté dans les toilettes. Maintenant, avoir mon verre de vodka super fort mélangé avec sprite et quelques bâtons avant d'aller au lit.
REALLY REALLY SHORT UPDATE TO SAY GOOD BYE!!!!! =P
I will be out of the country for a week! ;) where I'm going? hehehe who knows! LOL Proper regular updates when I get back!
**Edited 12th April 2008** Having a blast on this 'secret escape'! and also super duper broke hahaha. More updates with 'SHOCKING IMAGES' later on hehehe ;)
Till then here's a lil video to keep you smiling hehehe got some of my co-workers dancing to this hohoho. ea rj has been up to her lil trouble again lol *innocent face* =p
Gummibär (english version also available on youtube under gummy bear)
Sometimes life takes us down paths we try so hard to avoid. No matter how hard we try, we still pass through that path. I hide from everyone, or maybe I'm just hiding from myself? Who knows. It's better to hide then to face reality. Our problems is best kept to ourselves as no one will truly understand them. I now believe a friend when she used to say that before. Unless you walk in that person's shoes, you will never truly understand what that person is going through. Sometimes I wish I could just turn back time. To the time when I looked at the world with full of hope and dreams. Back to the time when I was a child with no worries at all.
It is important to tell the truth everytime? Heaven knows. I've tried it but at the end the person that gets hurt the most is no one else but me. Maybe it's best to tell people what they want to hear. I've learned to hide my feelings since I was 9... I can still do it now. I've fooled everyone with the 'act' I've put up. Let them think I'm a happy rich man's kid. I don't give a shit. People judge us without knowing who we truly are. That is their lost. Some of you have seen through my wall especially, Hien, Lily, MeiMei and Kyels ^_^ and to these special 4 friends I have I am truly grateful. They took the trouble to get to know me. Which I thank God everyday for their presence. They make life worth living for. For those of you who decide to judge me without taking the trouble to really get to know me... that is your choice. Don't pretend to care etc when you don't. I don't need pity and I don't need fake "friendship".
F*** I can't even write properly!! ARRGH!!!
*off to crash on the bed...so full of smoke!*
Linkin Park - In The End When I tried so hard and got so far But in the end, it doesnt even matter I had to fall, to lose it all But in the end, it doesn't even matter
Some of you may remember this song...someday by MLTR. I must be really old since this song is more than 10years old hahaha. I remember loving it then, but sekarang kira it's got a much deeper and personal meaning. Suprisingly how chilling at a friend's place and he was like RJ do you know this song, and it just brought back memories and *ping* it has been looping on my player. Together with another song given to me by a dear friend of mine. Will put that song up in the next post.
Anyways I'm on a 3 day break. Been FORCED to take my Lou Day (PH) in advance. Bummer big time as I can't go anywhere anyway since the weather is sucky and transportation back to my place on Sunday SUCKS!! So yea RJ terpaksa habiskan cuti dia di Windermere. Menyampah betul cuti but takleh gi mana-mana.
Eh .... looks like hotel ni serious pasal I untuk stay on one more year. F/O manager bilang, yang I akan di 'train' sebagai Duty Manager untuk bila I pulang kerja dengan mereka dalam bulan October 2008. Tapi hotel ini kira kena berjaga-jaga. Kalau setakat percakapan sahaja kira tak laku. Lainlah kalau in Black and white can hold them to their word. Anyway let's see how it goes. But for now, I miss my mom and little old 4-legged farty baby so much. Jackie wait for me... baby I'll come back and spoil you rotten for one month!! hehe. and you can bark all you want hahaha.
Tinggal 3 hari lagi sebelum something happens. lol. Aku pun tak tahu macam mana nak behave pada hari Isnin. Tengok la. Nasib baik I kerja juga lol.
Well Rj is gonna continue watching her HK Tv series.... Heart of Greed.
So.... do you guys remember this song?? Enjoy! ^_^
Ich bin, wer ich bin, ein Fremder zu mir. Das ist, wie ich fühlte mich in letzter Zeit. Ich weiss selbst nicht mehr. Je mehr ich suche desto mehr verloren ich. Das Leben hat mir eine zweite Chance, wieder zu lieben, aber ich kann nicht begrüsse diese zweite Chance, wenn mein Herz ist schon jemand anderes Eigentum. Ich sah einen Film erwähnt, und eines der Lieder in diesem Film beschreibt, wie ich fühle. Er sagt, wir nur einmal verlieben. Wir leben mit den Freuden der Liebe, und wenn unsere Liebe nicht funktioniert, wir leben mit dem Schmerz der Liebe. Richtig oder nicht, es hängt davon ab, wie jeder einzelne entziffern, die ganze Situation.
Gestern war ich im Gespräch mit meiner besten Freundin und beim Gespräch mit ihr fing ich an zu weinen. Ich habe noch nie so verloren gefühlt in meinem ganzen Leben. Zum ersten Mal in meinem Leben, nachdem ich 24 Jahre verloren und verwirrt. Wohin gehe ich? Was kann ich tun? Je mehr ich denke, je mehr ich suche, desto mehr ich mich zu einem Fremden. Lost in diesem Labyrinth ohne Ausweg.
Sie spielten einen Song für mich. Ein Lied nahm sie von mir schon lange vor. Werden Sie von Audioslave. Ja liebe, ich muss mich, aber, bevor ich tun kann, dass ich mich zu finden.
Mein bester Freund.....Hilf mir zu finden, mich und Werden mich wieder.
Bye bye Year of Piggy and Welcome Ratty Tatty ^_^". Year Of the Rat begins in a few hours. Bit more this new Year can be found here. Also the day that my skanky Cousin turns 21 and my best friend turns....shhh cannot say! hehehe. So double wishes in this post.
HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY STEPHANIE!!! Welcome To the Legal Age of Fun, Fun, Fun and Ahem lol. ;)
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To My Dearest and Best Friend Chúc mừng sinh nhật DARLING HIEN!!! Có thể năm nay được làm đầy hạnh phúc và thành công cho bạn!! (Hien, ở đó là một hiện tại (cho) bạn hehe)
Traditional TET Song (well that's what Lily told me when she instructed me to watch it...lol)
p/s: Will be waiting for my ang pau to come to me haha p/ss: You 2 better send me some cake!! hahaha
YAWN!!! I feel like I can sleep for days on end... but sadly that's now how my body operates...bummer. I can only get in like a max of 2 or 3hours of sleep before I wake up. Darn sleeping disorder. Work has been alright but super tiring as the hotel's running at 100% occupancy. And at times we're like running around like a headless chicken trying to get all our work done. Don't even have time to go online like I used to like when I used to during my last night shift duty last month.
Since last night, I've been having this sudden craving of fruits dipped in choco... don't ask me why but the craving is there. Last time I ate it was hmm in August when Hien came down to Malaysia....eh no it was during the Fête des Vendanges (wine Fest) in Neuchâtel. Wish got ppl delivery chocs to me when I work so I can gobble em down...*keep dreaming RJ*
Ok..can't stand already...need to get some shut eyes soon.
Video below is from one of my all-time favourite animation... Brother Bear. Both the movies (BB 1&2) has really nice soundtracks. Anyways the video below is for 2113 ;). Cheers!!
That is me alright, could not wake up at all today. System crashed big time and I did not even hear calls from a certain someone *eeks*. Yup that is how dead I slept!! Then again that is because I could not sleep last night and was awake till to around 0700hours this morning (making it 24hours with no sleep). Nothing could wake me up, not even mom and not even phone calls. Similiar to the time when I was back in Switzerland and my roomie Hien always had to go to extreme measures just to wake me up (which sometimes resulted in a sore bottom from being dragged out of bed to being fully awake due to a friendly wrestling session! haha). Besides the lack of sleep, work was also exhausting so, well you get the picture.
Attended Shen's birthday dinner at MyThai Restaurant in Starhill yesterday. I was interesting and funny as usual. Opps RJ gave Shen's bf the middle finger -poor fella- hahaha. Anyways being back there in Starhill brought back many memories of my internship time back in JW Marriott KL. Why so? Coz not only is Starhill located next to JWMKL but it is owned by YTL Corp who owns JWMKL. Plus the fact that during my internship period at the JWMKL sales and banquet dept, we also promoted the restaurants there as part of the seminar packages. Cannot wait till someone comes down to Malaysia so I can bring this someone to Starhill to chill and dine with Jazzy music in the background. Hey Kyels, next time we go double double kays? *grin*
Got to go soon since mom wants to use my laptop for a while. Kacau je la. hahaha. Oh yea the video below was taken yesterday during Shen punya bday dinner. The song doesnt really go with the whole video but for the time being thats gonna stay as it is used to drown a lot of the conversations hehe.
Enjoy.
I am so gonna get a kick from Kyels for this hehe.
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