So much so for regular updates eh! Been busy with work since I got back from my hols. Things have been a bit 'blöd' in the office with certain members of staff, and Gawd, I regretted starting work on Friday. The office was just in such a chaotic environment and not at all the 'atmosphere' that I was looking forward to when coming back to work. Finally today... erm maybe I should say yesterday since it's already the 24th here.... well anyways finally today things seem a bit more organized at work and slowly getting back into the system I knew (let's see how long it last this time). Was going to catch up on some sleep after work since I finished at 330p.m today. It was all I was dreaming off when I was at work hahaha. That's only because I've been only getting like 2hrs sleep each night since I got back from Switzerland...and my body wasn't in its right state. Breaking into cold and hot shivers etc wasn't really the situation to be in. But still forced myself to go to work...or else sure mampus with boredom in my room. yea yea RJ would rather work than take MC here hahaha.

Anyways so much so for shut eyes hahaha. Decided to take up Giovanni's invitation to swim. Issa was there too and before we knew it, in came Sabina... and later followed by Rafal and Roselyn hahaha. Yea the staff took over the hotel pool the whole evening. hehehe. So there we were massive swimming for 2hours with breaks for the Sauna and a bit of chit-chat. I was surprised that I could swim that many laps in the pool today considering the amount of people there. My right arm has been killing me for 2days already, muscle pull... but being in the mood I was in, I welcomed the pain and pushed myself to the limit swimming laps in the pool. Don't think that was a very good idea especially since now my arm is all numb hahaha. Well afther 2hours+ of swimming, this swimming group pigged out at Golden Fortune, a local Chinese restaurant near the hotel...all because yours truly opened her gap and said she feels like eating chinese :). So yea we spent the same amount of time in the restaurant pigging out and I think we gained what ever we lost in the pool hehe.

WTF!! it's almost 3am here and I have to go to work in 4hours and I just can't seem to fall asleep (which would explain why I'm updating this at this hour). Someone give me some damn sleeping pills so I can fall asleep like I used to! Damn!!

ouch...somehow somewhere I seem to have sliced my lower lip... sakit!! *sobs sobs*. Lately physically has not been that good especially with my arms. Has to be linked with lack of sleep and lost of appetite I guess. Surprisingly today I could eat a big dinner... but then again it was the only meal I ate the whole day minus a small brioche that I had for breakfast.

wtf! Ich möchte verschwinden!! Scheiße. Da ich jemanden verloren, das Leben ist nicht so bunt, wie sie verwendet werden! oh well life goes on :):(

Ich bin, wer ich bin, ein Fremder zu mir. Das ist, wie ich fühlte mich in letzter Zeit. Ich weiss selbst nicht mehr. Je mehr ich suche desto mehr verloren ich. Das Leben hat mir eine zweite Chance, wieder zu lieben, aber ich kann nicht begrüsse diese zweite Chance, wenn mein Herz ist schon jemand anderes Eigentum. Ich sah einen Film erwähnt, und eines der Lieder in diesem Film beschreibt, wie ich fühle. Er sagt, wir nur einmal verlieben. Wir leben mit den Freuden der Liebe, und wenn unsere Liebe nicht funktioniert, wir leben mit dem Schmerz der Liebe. Richtig oder nicht, es hängt davon ab, wie jeder einzelne entziffern, die ganze Situation.

Gestern war ich im Gespräch mit meiner besten Freundin und beim Gespräch mit ihr fing ich an zu weinen. Ich habe noch nie so verloren gefühlt in meinem ganzen Leben. Zum ersten Mal in meinem Leben, nachdem ich 24 Jahre verloren und verwirrt. Wohin gehe ich? Was kann ich tun? Je mehr ich denke, je mehr ich suche, desto mehr ich mich zu einem Fremden. Lost in diesem Labyrinth ohne Ausweg.

Sie spielten einen Song für mich. Ein Lied nahm sie von mir schon lange vor. Werden Sie von Audioslave. Ja liebe, ich muss mich, aber, bevor ich tun kann, dass ich mich zu finden.

Mein bester Freund.....Hilf mir zu finden, mich und Werden mich wieder.

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Fur Dich. Ich weiß, daß das Lied nicht nett ist, aber die Lyriken ist sinnvoll. In meiner sprache...ACK!! (I hope I got that translated correctly)

It’s never been easy for me
To find words to go along, with a melody
But this time there’s actually something, on my mind
So please forgive these few brief awkward lines

Since I’ve met you, my whole life has changed
It’s not just my furniture, you’ve rearranged
I was living in the past, but somehow you’ve brought me back
And I haven’t felt like this since before Frankie said relax

And while I know, based on my track record
I might not seem like the safest bet
All I’m asking you, is don’t write me off, just yet

For years I’ve been telling myself, the same old story
That I’m happy to live off my so called, former glories
But you’ve given me a reason, to take another chance
Now I need you, despite the fact, that you’ve killed all my plants

And though I know, I’ve already blown more chances
Than anyone should ever get
All I’m asking you, is don’t write me off, just yet
Don’t write me off just yet

Heute schreibe ich auf Deutsch. Meine Grammatik ist nicht gut, aber ich erlerne. Hier innen Malaysia, es ist sehr heisse und Ich bin schmelze. Ich vermisse die Schweiz und meine Freunde, aber es ist 2 Jahre bevor ich in die Schweiz wieder gehe. ICH MOCHTE MORGEN GEHEN!

Ok enough of german... because I do not know how to write the following in german. Bummer!

Well as of today I am officially using the hp laptop. only thing is that after using that tiny Acer 10' laptop for 2 years, changing to this 15' widescreen sure takes getting used to, especially the keyboard. Am still chilling in PD, doing some reading up, watching the Australian Open, and going bonkers. Talking about the Australian Open, I wonder how they can play with the heat. I know they had to postpone some of the outdoor matches as the heat was 40 degress high! yes 40! Can really goreng telur on the road man!

Have an interview arranged for Monday morning back up in KL. Wont reveal much here until I know exactly the entire job scope etc. Talked to Azhar about it, he said it is a great opportunity and a big step up especially for a 'fresh' graduate like me! So wait till Monday and lets see.

On to another topic, Woofy. Poor darling is sick. She was already unwell the other day, and after the vet yesterday, she was just too weak. This morning she refused to eat, so bro sent her to the vet for 1 night. Hope she is ok. Reason she never got well was because our little friend kept pouring her drinking water onto the cement and sleeping on the water all the time. So we had to remove its drinking water. Dont worry we are not starving the poor fella. She gets her drinking water hourly.